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Thursday, 19 March 2009

  • A couple weeks ago, I went on a retreat with the young adults from church.  It was an amazing time to getting to know people and enjoying God's beautiful creation.  I would go back in a heartbeat.  That weekend 2 guys shared their testimony and I was inspired by their strength and vulnerability to share their story with others.  I realized after they shared that I need to own my story.  I do to an extent but not completely.  I am been trying to write my testimony since this summer and for some reason I can never really finish it.  Sometimes I feel like I don't have much of a story to tell.  But I also realize each person is part of a puzzle that God is creating and with out our stories/lives the puzzle will never be complete.  Part of it is that I don't want to make people look bad who have wronged me in my life but it is part of my story and who I am.  The other day I realized that I need to take another approach to writing my story, it's not about what who has wronged me and what I have been through.  It's about God and what he has done in my life and where he has brought me to.  God is molding me into a work of art.  And with every trial that I face in life it is part of him molding me into a beautiful woman of God.  I am still trying to figure what all it means to own my story and this is the first step.  And in the near future I want to finish my testimony and glorify God through it.  I believe that God will use my story in some shape or form to help others in their walk with him.  We all have a story and each story is as equally important as someone else's.      

Wednesday, 14 January 2009

  • It is amazing how we take our bodies for granted when it is working as it should.  This past weekend I acquired this nasty cold along with an inner ear infection.  This cold wears me out.  I know I will appreciate it when I am healthy again.  I feel like I look like Rudolph with my red nose.  It is amazing how when you have an ear infection it messes with you equalibrilum. 



Wednesday, 10 December 2008

  • I got bored so I decided to do the survey.  I hadn't done one in a while.  Life is good on my end.  Things are going better than they were the last couple weeks.  Christmas is fastly approaching.  I am not as excited about Christmas this year as I was last year.  I am not sure why but I think I jsut haven't got into the Christmas spirit yet.  It will come yet, it always does.  I love Christmas and what it represents. 

    I just got done reading a book called Out of Islam by Christopher Alam.  In this book it talks about his life and what he has endorred (sp?) in order to stand up for Christianity.  He went through persecution because of his faith and he also saw many different miracles.  After reading this book I had to think where would I be if I had to go through all he went through.  Where would my faith be?  Then I thought what would my life look like if I truly surrendered my life to God and followed him no questions asked.  Where would I be if I was not born in America, where it is comfortable and I am not persecuted for my faith.  This past couple weeks at church we have been talking about practical atheism.  That is when you say believe in God but you life as you believe in God.  This something that has plagued our American culture.  I believe one reason that we have this problem is because we do not have to stand up for our faith and we are able to get away with practical atheism.  And along with practical atheism comes with being a lukewarm Christian.  We don't not wanna believe in God but we don't want to give our life over completely becaus we ar worried about we will have to change in our life.  We are comfortable with where we are and we know that if we are on fire for God then he will turn our life inside out and he will ruin our life.  Why are we so comfortable being medicore for Christ?  He only sent his only son to die for us and save us from our sin, so that we can enjoy God's grace.  And we take this so lightly, we don't completely understand it but as long as we are on this side of heaven.  This is something that God has been challenging me on, I think have allowed my self to become a medicore/lukewarm Christian.  And in realizing this is not ok with me and I can only pray that I do not allow myself to stay here. 

    On another note, this whole thing about bailing out the auto companies annoy me.  This is about a bad business practice.  I unserstand that we would lose many jobs if they would go under but this is teaching them that it is ok to bail out businesses when they make bad decisions.  What about us Americans who no longer feel like paying our bills, who is going to bail us out?  Our economy is where it is because of many factors but one major factor is that they loaned money to people who did not have the money in the beginning.  That is why out housing market is where it is right now.  If we continue to bail out every business that is in trouble will they learn anything from it and how are we going to pay for it all?  Because or money supply is not endless.  Anyway I needed to vent.  In the end all this will work out because God is in control and he knows what he is doing.

  • 100 truths about me

    100 truths about me
    100 Truths:

    Last beverage → Birch Beer... don't normally drink it but that was on the table for lunch.


    Last phone call → Darryl

    Last instant message → Emily saying that she needs to vent so she going to call me


    Last song you listened to → Gone Country by Alan Jackson


    Last time you cried → Dec.
    4th at Chloe's viewing

    Last text message → bec telling me she is not coming to lancaster this weekend... boooo


    HAVE YOU EVER:
    Dated someone twice → no


    Been cheated on → no


    Kissed someone & regretted it → Nope


    Lost someone special → yes

    LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: blue, green, red
    IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

    Fallen out of love → Nope


    Laughed until you cried → yeah, that is not unusual for me


    Met someone who changed your life --> No not in the last month

    Found out someone was talking about you → no, but i don't really care either


    RANDOM:
    How many kids do you want to have→ none, and I am good with that... I have my nephew alot


    Do you have any pets --> 1 dog, Whisper

    Do you want to change your name --> no

    What did you do for your last birthday → umm I went shopping with my mom and sis


    What time did you wake up today--> 9, I had off so I slept in

    What were you doing at midnight last night-> sleeping


    Name something you CANNOT wait for - > a new car


    Last time you saw your father → the other weekend

    What's one thing you wish you could change→ can't think of anything right now


    Have you ever talked to a person named Tom --> yeah


    What's getting on your nerves right now → nothing really

    Most visited webpage → facebook/myspace/xanga... I would like to get rid of one but I have different friends on the different sites.



    What's your real name → Marilyn Louise Weaver

    Nicknames : Mar, Marlo, Beav, Beaver Weaver, Big Weav, I think that is all of them

    zodiac sign → Leo

    Elementary/middle/high school → Pleasant Valley Mennonite School, Brecknock Elementary, Garden Spot Middle School, and Milton Hershey School

    Hair color → brown

    Long or short → on the short side, I used to have hair down to my butt so this is short for me

    Are you health freak → not really


    Height → 5'1"

    What do you like about yourself --> my personality


    Piercings → don't have any


    Tattoos → none

    Righty or lefty → righty

    FIRSTS :
    First surgery → my wisdom teeth


    First piercing: none, I still don't have one

    First best friend → Darlene and Jess

    First sport > I think tennis in middle school


    First pet → Ginger- she is the first one I remember

    First vacation- don't remember, maybe going to Kentucky seeing fam


    First concert → I don't remember, probadly Gospel Express

    First crush → Shawn Weaver in elementary school


    Future career possiblities → i am not sure, we will see what God has instore for me.




    WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

    Lips or eyes → eyes, they say so much

    Hugs or kisses → hugs

    Shorter or taller --> i don't care, as long as he is taller than me


    Older or Younger → I don't mind either as long as they aren't too young or too old

    romantic or spontaneous → a little bit of both

    Sensitive or loud → ouch, please don't be loud.

    but don't be a CHICK either! - Bec I agree with this one.


    Hook-up or relationship → relationship.
    not into hook-ups


    Trouble-maker or hesitant → I think it depends what it is and who it is with but usually hesitant


    HAVE YOU EVER :
    Kissed a stranger → no

    Drank hard liquor → Yes

    Lost glasses/contacts → usually not since I need mine to see

    Ran away from home → no, but thought about it when I was little

    Broken someone's heart → I don't think so


    Been arrested--> no

    Turned someone down → yes

    Cried when someone died → yes

    Liked a guy-friend: yes

    DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
    Yourself → yeah. i mean, i have my doubtful moments, but usually yes.



    Love at first sight → no

    Heaven → yes

    Santa Claus → nope, never belived in him, growing up Mennonite will dod that for you.


    Kissing someone you've met for the first time -> no


    Angels → Yes

    ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
    Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes and no. I miss some of my friends that I haven't seen in a while but there is really no special guy in my life right now.


    Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time → no

    Do you believe in God? → Yes, he is the reason I am where I am today.



    Posting this as 100 Truths

Saturday, 29 November 2008

  • Sometimes I think back at the days that I have and at the time I complain about them.  But then I realize I am thankful for them because they are what makes life interesting and they what keeps from life getting boring.  And they teach me many valuable lessons in life.

    I have had an interesting last week it was mixed the good and the bad.  My consumers throw me a few curve balls that I didn't expect, but that is all in a days work; this past weekend throwing a surprise birthday party for my mom; I got sick with that stomach flu that is going around and it made me remember how good it is to be feeling good and healthy again; Thanksgiving was a good calm and relaxing day with the family; and on Thanksgiving morning I found out that a friend of mine died.  She died on Wed. from a battle with bone cancer.  She was only 17 years old.  I could only think of what her mom was going through on Thanksgiving day, not having her only daughter with her to celebrate that day.  And how hard it has to be to lose her daughter, who was so young.  How I got to know Chloe was, I lived with her when I went to Milton Hershey School for 4 years.  So over that time she became like a sister to me.  She was a quiet and calm natured girl at least the time I lived with her.  The last time I saw Chloe was her Relay for Life about 4 weeks ago.  It was weird doing the relay and thinking this is mostly likely the last that I will see her alive.  I guess this is something that you truly don't think about until it happens and even then you don't allow yourself to think about.  Until you know you have to deal with it one time or another but even then you don't want to go through the pain that you have to deal with it.  I am thankful that I was given the privelage to know her and to know who she was.  I am amazed by the strength that she showed until that end.  Even in her last days, her wish was to give back to others as she had been given. 

    Anyway with this all said, I am writing this to ask for prayer for her family aand those who knew her.  Pray for comfort and strength for her family whether it is biological or it is family by choice.